29 weeks, 4 days: The dog has sympathy pregnancy symptoms

I think Scout has sympathy pregnancy symptoms. For the last 2 nights she wakes up every hour and sort of whines like she can't get comfortable and then goes back to bed. That's how I feel. I wake up, realize I can't get comfortable, try to roll over, and then almost whimper or groan before I close my eyes again. I just wish Scout would cry in a whisper so I wouldn't wake up when she does.



I also had a horrible nightmare last night. I had a dream that at 32 weeks I went to the hospital because I was in labor. Chris was there and then the dream jumped foward by a few days and Cooper was already born. I had no memory of getting to the hospital or even the last couple weeks! I started freaking out when we couldn't take Cooper home with us and kept asking why I felt like I hadn't given birth. Chris was being really quiet about it. I freaked out and starting crying because I also couldn't remember anything about my life for the last couple months. Then we get home and he tells me to read the email he sent to the family.



Basically the email said that I had to have a C-section because something went very wrong and I had to be completely knocked out. Then I got really sick and went into a coma for a couple of weeks and now I was experiencing short-term amnesia. I could come home but Cooper had to stay in the NICU. I really freaked out then!! To top it off, someone had replied to me and said all of that happened because I sat hunched over all the time while I was pregnant. I got so angry about that!! (Not sure why...it doesn't make any kind of sense).



When we got to go see Cooper at the hospital, he was tiny and so pale like a ghost. He had white blonde hair and blue eyes (okay so I've dreamt about all the possibilities of hair/eye color I think). I was really uncomfortable holding him and I was heartbroken that I couldn't breastfeed because he was too small and sick.



What a freaky dream! At least Scout brought me out of it by waking me up. I think I had this bad dream because I've been thinking a lot about how I would like labor to go. I think my mind and body are preparing me for the reality that I won't be able to plan for everything. I'm also feeling anxious now that I'm down to about 10 weeks...so maybe it's to help me prepare that it could be shorter than 10 weeks. I'm ready for the wacky dreams to come back.