Sunday, July 10, 2011

May we all be coffee

I got this from a friend’s blog that I went to college with (it’s a private blog, otherwise I would link you to it).  I gave a continuation speech to my niece Haley’s 8th grade class that had a similar message, so I thought it very fitting to pass this on. 

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl.  Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see." 

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.  Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma the daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity:  boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its insides became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

Think of this:

Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.  The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.  When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.  Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Concert Season!

Chris and I love going to concerts.  We didn’t go to many in California, partly because of a lack of babysitters, and partly because of the price and inconvenience.  Being back in Colorado most of those things go away.

We went and saw Bruno Mars at the end of May.  Mikael and Che watched the kids while we went to dinner and then to the concert.  We had a pretty good meal at Bonefish Grill, but it definitely wasn’t anything like our favorite Fish House in CA (gosh we miss that place!) or really any seafood restaurant in CA.  The concert was great, but we had floor ‘seats’ which was standing room only.  So not fun for a 2.5 hr concert! 

We just want to Sarah McLachlan and Colorado Symphony Orchestra at Red Rocks and it was fantastic!  She is by far my favorite artist, and I’ve never seen her live so this was awesome.  I love Red Rocks and her music was meant for an orchestra.  Really great, except for the 45 min it took to get out of the parking lot and on to the street!

Gigi watched the kids for us and we went to our favorite Hops.  The waitress messed up the timing on our food so we got our salad and entrĂ©e at the same time—annoying.  We both commented on it and the waiter asked, ‘Do you want me to take it back?’  We both thought, ‘Take it back where??  To put under heat lamps to dry everything out?  Uh, no thanks.’  At any rate we had a really great time!

And now we are off to Seattle for vacation tomorrow while our contractor does demolition on our master bath/closet and basement.  Yay!!

I love you

With Charlotte:

I lub you daddy.

I love you more Charlotte.

No, I lub you daddy.

I love you too Charlotte.

I lub you three daddy.

 

With Cooper:

I yub you mommy.

I love you too, Cooper.

I yub you fuwst {first} mommy.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Learning to love running

I started the Couch to 5K (C25K) on May 16.  I HATED running.  I dreaded every run day and I looked forward to the walking portion of the program, while spending my entire walking time feeling anxious about the running portion.  About 6 weeks later, I am still running 3 days a week and can run for at least 20 min without stopping.  And I actually enjoy it.  I can’t believe how far I’ve come!

Week 1 (4 days): 60 sec run, 90 sec walk, repeat for for 20 min. 

Yes I actually thought I might die during those 60 sec.  I came home and told Chris that I didn’t think I could do the program because there was no way that I would ever be able to run 3 min, 5 min, 8 min, 10 min and absolutely no way would I ever be able to run 20 min straight.  The program only has you do 3 days for each workout, but I did 4 days for the first few weeks so that I didn’t burn myself out.

Week 2 (4 days):  90 sec run, 2 min walk, repeat for 20 min.

Only very slightly better.  I thought I still might die.  I hated all 90 of those seconds and cherished the 2 min of walking.  Still didn’t believe I could run more than I was already running.

Week 3 (4 days):  Run 90 sec, walk 90 sec, run 3 min, walk 3 min, repeat one time.

This week was the week I always stopped in the program.  I had started this program twice before.  The first time I just quit at week 3 because I hated running for more than 90 sec.  It wasn’t enjoyable and I didn’t get why anyone would torture themselves like that.  I started 30 Day Shred and then P90X instead.  Then I broke my toe and had to wait for that to heal.  Then after a few months I tried the C25K for the second time and I ended up with peroneal tendonitis and in a walking boot for several weeks where I gained nearly 20 lbs due to a combined lack of exercise and emotional eating.

I changed my diet habits using ‘How to eat what you love, and love what you eat’.  Basically eat when I want, what I want, but only if I was hungry and stop when I was satiated.  It worked and I lost 15 of the 20 lbs I had gained.  And then I decided with me being off work and the days being longer I could stick with the C25K program.  I was determined to get past week 3.

And for the 3rd time with the program I still hated week 3.  I absolutely hated running those 3 min.  I did a 4 day of week 3 and then gladly moved onto week 4.

Week 4 (3 days): Run 3 min, walk 90 sec, run 5 min, walk 2.5 min, repeat one time.

Oh my gosh what a difference running longer than 3 min makes!!  I hate the first 3 min of running, but after that it feels fantastic!!!  I just wanted to keep running.  I needed very little of the walking to ‘catch my breath’ and recover, and I would get excited about ‘getting’ to run again when the walking was over.  I really felt like I might actually be able to finish the program!!  I also realized that music makes a big difference in my motivation and mental ability to keep going—the podcast (DJ Beatsmith) for the program is really fantastic.

The only problem was that my ankle started hurting again.  I had been running on the track at the gym and I think I was putting some extra pressure on the tendon.  So I wrapped the ankle and took 5 days off from running.  I did take walks with the kids and really focused on my gait to make sure my form was good for running again.

Week 5, Day 1:  5 min run, 3 min walk, 5 min run, 3 min walk, 5 min run

I decided to run outside exclusively to avoid any ankle issues.  I noticed that I like the feeling of getting somewhere, which adds to my sense of accomplishment.  I also have the challenge of some small hills through our neighborhood which will help if I ever want to run a real 5K.  I am enjoying the running and after I hit 3 min I really believe I can run for a long time.  Those first 3 min are still awful and I just want to quit, but I know that I will feel great by minute 4.  I just wish I didn’t have to stop after only 5 min.

Week 5, Day 2:  8 min run, 5 min walk, 8 min run

Wow – I actually love running!  It feels amazing to run for 8 min and the first 3 min seem to whiz by now.  I can really feel how much better cardiovascular shape I’m in.  I recover in only a minute or so.

Week 5, Day 3:  20 min run

I actually ran for 20 min straight and only walked for about 20 yards out of the entire run, which was right after I ran up a long hill.  It felt amazing and I realized I hit a little bit of a wall around the 9 min mark and then again around the 17 min mark.  If I just keep running, change the tempo of my music, or slow down a bit and focus on my breathing then I am able to push through fine.  I felt absolutely amazing after this run and the idea of running for 30 min or more seems completely reasonable now.  I can’t believe I ever thought I would NEVER be able to run for 20 min straight.

Week 6, Day 1:  Run 5 min, walk 3 min, run 8 min, walk 3 min, run 5 min

This is a recovery run from the 20 min run the week before.  I hate the first 3 min still and I despise only being able to run 5 min because 8 min feels so much better.

Week 6, Day 2:  Run 10 min, walk 3 min, run 10 min

I hate the wall at 8.5-9 min mark that I seem to hit, but after that I just want to keep running.  For this reason, I don’t love running 10 min and would prefer to do 12 or 15 min instead.  I felt really great after the run tonight despite having to run on the treadmill for the first time in weeks because of the stormy weather.  Running on a treadmill is slightly harder for me (I seem to wander a bit when I run and I can’t do that on the treadmill) because I watch the clock too much.  I am on the home stretch now and can’t wait to see how the next few weeks go.  I can’t believe I have learned to love running!

Next run on Sunday:  Week 5, Day 3:  Run 25 min

Week 7 (3 days):  Run 25 min, Week 8 (3 days): Run 28 min, Week 9 (3 days): Run 30 min

Got a job!

After spending about a month and half interviewing and strongly considering 3 different companies, I accepted a job last week with a new company here in town.  I am very excited to start August 1st, but I will also miss being at home so much.  It’s a really great company with great pay, amazing benefits – including 5 weeks of vacation and very low cost of insurance.  I think the culture of the company with a strong focus on work/life balance is a great fit for me and I really liked my new boss when I interviewed with him.  The role is something I’ll learn from and grow my skill sets, but it’s also a company I can grow with for several years.  The Denver office is their US headquarters and there are nearly 1000 employees here, so I feel like there is also more stability.  Looking forward to my new adventure!