Censorship

This is about the point in November blogging month that I start to feel very exposed.  I love writing.  Love it.  I also don’t feel comfortable being the center of attention in this way.  I know there are a lot of people who read the blog.  That’s why I’m so nervous for my ballet recital – people will be watching me!

I also realize that because my life is so intertwined with everyone in my life, that I’m not just writing about me on this blog.  I’m writing about everyone in my life, and they may not like that.  My children are also getting older and I’m not sure how many of these things they want me to continue writing about.  Here are some examples:

Bathtub pictures:  I have the most adorable bathtub pictures from about 1.5 years ago, so they were 4 years old.  There is nothing inappropriate about them, but I wonder if they are at an age that bathtub pictures are no longer suitable for the photo blog.

Chris job/stay at home dad gig:  Chris is really enjoying being a stay at home dad, but that wasn’t always the case.  I would love to blog about his experiences and our conversations from my point of view, but I suppose if he wants it written about in a public arena, he will write about it.

My family and friends:  I would love to talk about how my relationships with family and friends have changed over the years as I’ve grown up.  It’s a fascinating subject to me.  Or I would love to talk about when I finally felt like my in-laws were my family, too.  None of these people asked to be on my blog.  I try to keep the specific people vague when I write and it’s hard to do.

Charlotte’s adoption story:  This has been the hardest for me.  I am an incredibly honest person.  Those who know me say I can be brutally honest and very direct.  I think her story deserves my honesty.  However, much like my life, her life is intertwined with the lives of many, and in order to be honest with her story I have to include those people.  I’m struggling to balance the honesty and the proper level of censorship.

And just so you know, I despise censorship.  Sometimes I want to start all over with blogging and be anonymous.